Fire Bondage

So Sunday was pretty neat. I worked in the morning and when I came home, Tom and I went to hang flyers for the business that I'm trying to start. By the time we were finished, it was dinnertime and we were craving everything but hot dogs so we headed to the store. We ended up deciding on a spread of all kinds of different foods....blueberries, kiwi, banana, shrimp with cocktail sauce, pickles, sushi, tomatoes with salt, mushrooms....and top it all off, some sweet mead wine.We cut everything up into bite size pieces and arranged it beautifully on a plate and then sat down to watch 9 1/2 Weeks.

I haven't seen this movie in ages. It reminded of how simple things used to be back when I first started out on this great BDSM adventure. Things were so different back then and this movie was so edgy and exciting to me. It reminded me that BDSM can be slow and sensual and romantic.

By the middle of the movie, we were both feeling a little tipsy from the wine and a little steamy from the movie. We had been feeding each other and snuggling and making out....slowly , gently touching each other. It was wonderful. Then he took me by the hand and led me to the kitchen where he handed me a lit candle. Continuing to the basement, he had me lie down on the work table in the dark. Then he lit several more candles and arranged them around my body.

I wasn't able to move once he was done or else I would be burned. He worked his way around the table, dripping the wax from each candle onto my arms, chest, belly, kitty, and legs. At one point, he moved his hand back and forth like a flogger or whip, flinging hot wax onto my body. I was later told that the wax was still on fire as it flew through the air. That would explain why the pain eventually turned white hot and I had to beg him to stop.

Then he placed a candle on my chest between my breasts and told me to relax as he let go. The candle shook like mad but managed to stay balanced there. At first I tried not to breath but that didn't last. The longer I held my breath, the more frantic I got so I really had to work hard at calming myself. I closed my eyes and tried to take long slow steady breaths. It was definitely a symbolic sort of learning experience that I was able to apply to the rest of my life.

To end the scene, Tom handed me two of the lit candles, one in each hand. Then he held out each of the other candles, one at a time, and told me to blow them out. I had to lift my head and put some significant effort into blowing in order to snuff them. All of this movement caused my hands to shake and the hot wax to drip onto my skin. Finally I blew them all out and was allowed to blow out the last two.

This scene really messed with my head. I had to put a lot of trust in Tom. I wasn't sure how much he knew about wax so there was some possible danger of getting burned by it....and then there was the fire, which can be pretty dangerous in itself. I also had to practice a lot of self control, which I'm not used to. I wasn't bound but I couldn't move. I had to force myself to stay put despite the pain. It was a really amazing.

It felt like there were a lot more candles than this at the time.

Littles in the Sun

Tom and I tried to have another event for the littles in our area. We had a decent number of RSVPs but only one person showed up. That one person was pretty awesome though and we had a lot of fun. We went to Grafton Lakes State Park for some swimming and barbecuing.

The first thing that we did when we arrived was set up the tent. That proved useful for changing into our bathing suits and doing diaper changes. Then we sat around and colored for a while. I was being all shy about using my paci and bottle so Amanda decided to help me out by lifting my dress up so everyone could see my diaper underneath. Luckily there weren't too many people around to see. I was so embarrassed! She said something pretty significant to me though. You're never going to see these people again. I know this as fact but I always forget. Thank you for reminding me, Amanda. I was able to relax a little after that.

Diaper changes in the tent!

After coloring, we all headed down to the lake for some swimming. The lake was a bit chilly but so nice compared to the heat of the day. We talked about LARPing and the SCA and martial arts and escape methods to use when someone is trying to chase you down in the water with tickle fingers. *grins* It was fun. Eventually they blew the whistle and warned everyone that the beach would be closing so we headed back to "camp" to cook some food.

Tom got the charcoal going while I tried to roast marshmallows over the fire. We had those GIANT ones that take forever to eat. I love, love, love roasting marshmallows. Then we cooked some hot dogs and sipped on apple juice. It was a really great day.When we got home, Daddy helped me change and then gave me a bottle of milk in bed while singing me to sleep.

Crafts!

I went to Michaels today to pick up some supplies for my business and was a floored by all of the craft possibilities in there. My little went crazy for them! I was drooling over the stickers and paints and googly eyes and feathers and bells. Oh my goodness! It was so colorful! I can't wait until I'm making a bit more money and can pick some of this stuff up. It would be so much fun for the Littles Invasion.

This was just the stickers....and there were more in the next aisle over.

I Have To Come Up With Better Names For These

I have been stuck, stuck, stuck in little space all weekend. I love being little. I think my little side comes out a lot when I'm stressed. It's relaxing because I don't have to think about the stressful things. Life is all sunshine and butterflies when I'm little. Doesn't mean I ignore what's going on in my life, just means I don't have to think about it every second of every day. Some people drink, some people argue, some people work out, some people get a massage.....I get little.

Last night, they sent me home early from work since they had too many people so I decided to watch Fern Gully with my Maggie bear. I dressed up in my fluffy jammies and had a bottle of milk with my paci and my warm blankie. It was SOOOOO nice.

Today, Tommy joined me for dinner! He wore his pretty pink dress. We both put bibs on and ate spaghettio's, dinosaur nuggets, and smiley face potatoes from our Elmo plates. We both had bottles of milk and then we snuggled for a nap before I had to go back to work for a meeting. It was a lot of fun. When I got home he was sitting nicely in the living room coloring. Such a good boy.

A couple of days ago, Daddy was feeling sad and stressed so I made him a flutterby card. Look!

I realized today that it doesn't take many days of wearing a dider before my bladder starts to decide that it doesn't need to work as well. I wore a dider for one night and I almost had several accidents today!

Diapers n' Stuff

Daddy made me SOOOO little last night. It was our 2 year anniversary so we went out and had some fun. First he put me in some super think disposables and then I did the same to him. Then we headed out for some wonderfully delicious pizza at one of my favorite restaurants. He kept making me drink, which meant multiple waddles up to the soda fountain. I was absolutely sure that people were staring at me although he insists that they weren't. (He might be right but I was still embarrassed.)

After dinner we went to the drive in. Daddy helped buckle me in and then stuck a pacifier in my mouth for the drive. I love love love pacies....and getting buckled in. I kept covering my mouth so that the cars passing by wouldn't see me. I'm a big chicken. I shouldn't care but I do and I want to stop. When we got to the drive in, we put the seats down and laid in the back of the Subaru. I snuggled up nice and tight with my teddy bear and my Daddy and had a fantastic time.

At one point, even though I tried REALLY hard to pee slowly, my diaper started to leak. I swear this happens EVERY time. No wonder I'm so paranoid about being seen. I'm not sure if it's because of the quality of diapers, the shape of my body, or just not changing frequently enough but it happens a lot. I ended up changing the diaper under a blanket, which worked out fine.

When we got home, I kept my paci in my mouth, put the side gate up on my bed, and snuggled with Maggie and Daddy some more. It was an awesome night.

In the morning, Daddy was not feeling like a Daddy anymore so I was a little mean to him (by request). I made him go out to the car with me in his GIANT wet diapers and sit there while I went into the store to get some marshmallows. When we got back, I played with his peepee a little and then stuck some of those marshmallows up his behind.....I think there were 5 of them in there. Then we settled down to watch an episode of something on tv. Tommy's belly got more and more gurgly until he finally had no choice but to mess his diaper. Hehehehehehe.... Poor baby.

By lunch, I was back to feeling little again. I have a hard time getting out of the headspace when I'm able to go so deeply into it. Probably didn't help that I was looking at little girl clothes just before lunch. So I sat on the floor in the kitchen while Tom made soup. He filled up a sippy cup for me and fed me some of his rice.

I love being little....A LOT. Now I have to go to work and when I get home, I have to go right to sleep so I can work again super early in the morning. I wish I could just stay home and be little. I really want to go put on a dider and a onesie, put my paci in my mouth, snuggle with Maggie or George, and color and watch Disney movies and eat goldfishies and drink from my sippy cup and....well, you know. Maybe on another day.

Dr Seuss Littles Invasion

Yet again, I have let far too much time pass in between entries. That means that the details have become foggy. Ah....c'est la vie. What can you do?

The invasion was wonderful, as usual. I set up a huge table with puzzles, worksheets, coloring books, crayons, bubbles, and play dough. Everyone seemed to really enjoy this. At some point the tv was pulled over and we started playing movies like Aladdin and A Series of Unfortunate Events. People were in and out of the playpen throughout the night and the diaper muncher got used as it was supposed to. It was great! We had Dr Seuss stories read to us and there was snuggling and diaper changes and fun. People brought in themed food like colorful twizzlers, blue alfredo sauce, and flavored oreos.

It was a small group this time, which was kind of nice. Everyone really got to know each other well. We all seemed to mesh. Breakfast was especially enjoyable this time. It's nice when people spend the night and get together at the diner in the morning. It always fills me up with such warmth to look down the table at all of these people who understand each other. No judgement at all and lots of happy smiles. I hope more people get to come next time. Makes me wonder if every 2 months is too often or if it was just a fluke that people couldn't make it.

While watching one of the movies, I decided to climb into one of the dog cages for fun. I'm good at finding trouble when I'm little. Then Locke and Andrea decided to join in on the fun. They fed me cheese and pepperoni through the bars, made me do tricks, poked at me with a big stick, and teased me. It was a little strange playing in this way around all of the other littles but I tuned into my tunnel vision and blocked everyone else out for a while. Locke had me put my head in his lap to finish watching the movie towards the end. He would grab onto my hair every time I got distracted by something. I really enjoyed that. I'm excited to see where this puppy play thing might go in the future.

It was around midnight that we realized how late it was and that we hadn't started playing yet so Tom went off with Andrea and I headed to the medical room with Locke. He ended up putting some 8 gauge hooks into my chest and then played with some small needles. I've been wanting to try hooks for the longest time. It wasn't as painful as I had anticipated. I'm such a scaredy cat. One of the hooks definitely hurt a little more than the other. I guess the holes were a little closer together. I think what hurt the most was the dry blood scraping the skin. At one point Locke started spanking my kitty parts. That always turns me on. For some reason, I wasn't able to have an orgasm, which was super frustrating but I still had fun. Anyway, I can't wait to try doing a hook pull with Andrea sometime and then eventually a hook suspension.

Easter!

The Easter bunny left something for everyone in my house today.

I was feeling super bouncy and little last night and this morning. Not sure why exactly. We didn't really have anything planned for the day but I think the little girl in me was still excited about the holiday. Tom was sweet last night and helped me eat a fun midnight snack. He tucked a napkin into my shirt, pushed me close to the table, and made me drink from a BIG BIG cup using two hands. I slept soundly after that with my Maggie bear, my blankie, and my sucie. Oh yeah....and I peed on him....twice. Makes me giggle. Apparently watersports is of interest to him. Today we went hiking. There were some grumblies this weekend but overall it was pretty relaxing. Wish I weren't suffering from allergies though.

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A Fire Ignited

I've been so out of it for the last 3 months. Then there was the Littles Invasion. Now I feel like I'm on fire. My interest has been piqued again. I'm longing for more play. I'm longing for more time with friends. I almost feel like I have camp drop or something. I ended up going in search of last year's Camp Crucible pictures and found them. Reliving those memories was wonderful. I'm really excited about going again this year. Tom and I almost thought about not doing it but I think I'd miss it too much. I wish we could go for the full week but we're only going for the last half. Here are some of last year's photos. I have more but I'm not sure if the other people in the pictures would want them to be shared.

I won Uncle Denny at the auction and I wanted to play with blood and needles so this is what we did. It was so cold so bethie, the sweetheart that she is, covered my feet with a blanket.

These little babies were hanging out in the rafters at Headquarters.

I didn't actually witness this in the littles cabin but it's a great representation of camp. 

This was the last night of camp, right after formal dinner. We were watching cartoons, doing card tricks, coloring, eating cookies with milk, and getting read stories.

There was a whole pavilion right outside of the cabin where the littles could do bubbles, color, play with beads, play with parachutes, ride the giant tricycle, and all sorts of other things.

I decorated the table for formal dinner. I tried not to put too many things on the table that would get the littles into trouble but we managed to attract some attention anyway. We ended up tying some balloons to a stuffed animal and got it to float in mid air without moving too much.

Tom and I sat in the shade to color parrots to be used on the parade float.

Me and 3 naked boys had some fun floating on a giant raft one evening. That was after we tried pushing each other off of it.

Tom and I took a few minutes to cool off and look out our schedules in the tent, sans clothing. It felt nice to have a cool breeze blowing against my naughty bits. It's not every day that you have them exposed to the open air.

Littles Invasion - St Patrick's Day

Wow! What a fantastic event. We had a coin hunt which went very well. There were about 30 coins that were never found. I'm sure that we'll be finding them for a few months to come. We played Marco Polo in the dark. This is such a fun game since nobody can see anything so you never know exactly where to run. Thanks to Rapunzel for letting us borrow a blindfold. We had a blanket fort, some coloring, some hanging out in the playpen, some bowling with bouncy balls and cups, and some cartoons. I think the next event is going to have a summer theme. I'm planning on organizing a few extra activities so that things don't die down as quickly.

I ended up wrestling with Locke for a little while. That was fun, as always. It involved lots of control holds, pressure points, pinching, and rolling around on the ground. My muscles were quite sore after all of this. I never feel like I'm doing very much but apparently Locke just doesn't show much pain in his face. He said he was pretty sore the next day as well.

Frankie let me play with his violet wand for a little while. I've used this toy before but I've never had the metal plate put on me. That was kind of neat because anytime someone touched me, I would get shocked. Usually it's the other way around. Usually the top is the only one able to produce a shock in someone else. I also thought it was interesting that touching me through clothing was more painful than touching my bare skin. The material provided the perfect gap between the surfaces of skin to prevent grounding.

Later in the evening, I got a little cheeky and told TheOtherRyan that I could go all night when he was lightly spanking me. I ended up being bent over Tom's lap and spanked by Locke and TheOtherRyan with a leather gloved hand, a very large paddle, a car antennae, and a thick leather belt. My bottom was all sorts of pretty colors when they were done with me. I was so sore from this spanking that even standing hurt. I must have been pretty swollen. I definitely had a good endorphin rush going. Unfortunately, I ended up feeling pretty nauseous afterwards. I didn't realize it at the time but I had quite the audience. Thankfully, they really enjoyed the scene as well.

I had lots of help getting a shamrock to stick to my chest. A few fists found there way to that spot on more than one occasion leaving a red circle with a little white shamrock design in the middle. It was kind of fun but also ouchie,

Lastly, I did some needleplay with Locke. He only put 6 needles in me but I was in so much pain from the rest of the night that I didn't need much more than that to have a good time. I thought it was interesting how well he was able to read my body language. I only had to make a slight movement with my hand and he knew that he needed to back off a little. It was nice.

I Have My Happy Dance Back

It has been quite a while since I've written and I kinda miss it. I took myself out of the kink world almost entirely for the last 3 months or so. Things got crazy with Christmas and New Years and lots of stressful conversations at home about poly living and having kids and buying a house. I had both parents in the hospital at one point and all sorts of other things. Soooo.....my mind has been occupied with big stressful adult stuff and my little hasn't been around very much.

Tom and I went to Arisia in January, which was awesome. It was a bit crazy but I still had a good time. I don't know what it is about this event but I really enjoy it and often find myself longing to go back. I love staying in that hotel and seeing all of the costumes and being around people without having to actually engage in any way. I ended up going to a lot of panels on parenting, which is what eventually led to the big life discussions at home. I learned a lot and had a lot of fun. I ended up getting my first ever corset, which I'm looking forward to wearing again this coming weekend. It's black with little flower designs. Hurray!

Despite not doing much blogging, I still have had a FEW "little" moments over the last 3 months. One day Daddy took me to the store and made me pick out some pretty duct tape. Then he put some stockings on my hands and covered them with the tape. This was surprisingly difficult for me to handle. Apparently I have some issues with restraint. Anytime Daddy binds me up in such a way that I can't get out if I wanted to, I start to panic. You can see in the picture that one hand is bound in a fist and one is not. I started to panic while Daddy was wrapping the tape around my fist so I begged him to let me keep my other hand open. Thankfully, he conceded. He keeps telling me that he's going to make me a set of jammies that I can't get out of. I have a habit of stripping whenever he dresses me in something. I'm curious about it but I'm also a bit nervous.

We've still been doing our monthly munches. We have one on the first Sunday of the month and one on the last Wednesday. We've had mixed luck. One time we had 8 people show up and many times we have had none. It's kind of sad because we're trying to form a nice community in our area but it's just not working. We've had a lot of individuals come to our munches but not many people return. I can't figure out why. If we knew the problem, we would fix it. The last munch was fun though. One person showed up and we ended up visiting the pet store and the hurricane machine.

On Saturday, Tom, his wife, and I all went to the Bronx Zoo. It was still pretty chilly but we had a lot of fun. Unfortunately, a lot of the animals were hidden away because their outdoor enclosures weren't suitable for them in the winter. We'll have to visit again in the summer. Hopefully my little will come out a little more than she did this time. I still enjoyed seeing some of the big birds, the sea lions, the tigers, and the giraffes though. It always amazes me how big some of these animals are. 

Yesterday was super duper awesome! Daddy made me sit in the back seat with the child lock on the doors when we were coming home from the munch. He also made me put my hair in pigtails. When we got home, he put me in a diaper and my little school uniform. We both had actual schoolwork to do so I sat on the floor next to his computer and we both worked away. Later in the evening, we had some adult fun. I found watching my pigtails bounce in front of me while being taken from behind to be super hot. *blushes*

This coming weekend is the littles invasion. I'm super excited! I decided on a St Patrick's Day theme so everyone should hopefully be wearing green. We're going to have a shamrock hunt (like an easter egg hunt) and who knows what else. We always have fun though. Sounds like there will be a lot of people coming. I have an awesome costume to wear and I'll definitely be taking pictures. I'm also going to be having some fun with Locke....needles and wrestling. I can't wait!

In the last couple of months, Daddy has read me a few stories. I love when he does this. It feels so warm and fuzzy.

And to finish, a leftover picture from Halloween that I never posted. Tom thinks it's creepy because of the fake smile. What do you think?

Peace on Earth

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It's Christmas Time

Christmas is almost here! And my birthday too! And it snowed yesterday for the real firstest time ever this year! I love it! I love the lights that are everywhere. I love the hot chocolate and the music and the cheer. I love cake for my birthday. I love letters to Santa and sparkling snow. I love advent calendars. I love mittens and footie pajamas. I love the Christmas trees and the presents. I love stockings. I love that Santa waved at me at the mall the other day. I simply love this time of year. Hurray!

I can't wait to build snowmen in the back yard and go ice skating outside at Empire State Plaza. I can't wait to catch a snowflake on my tongue and make snow angels. I can't wait to go sledding and snow shoeing. I can't wait to open presents and spend some time with my family. I can't wait to bake cookies and leave them out for Santa. I can't wait! I can't wait! I can't wait!

Fun Day of Little

Yesterday was a pretty awesome day. First Daddy helped me take a shower. He even brushed my teeth for me, which put me into little headspace immediately. I love when he does that. Then Tom made some lunch for the both of us while I sat at the table and colored. I had a diaper on, my onesie, and a GIANT blanket wrapped around me. We ate a wonderful lunch of Spaghetti O's and dinosaur chicken nuggets in our colorful plastic bibs. Tom still somehow managed to get sauce on his white shirt. Silly little boy. He's got skills! We used our sippy cups and "little" plates and cutlery and had a wonderful time. Then we put some futon mattresses out on the living room floor and did some more coloring while watching Madagascar. We invited a few friends over who finished watching the movie with us and then we all walked over to the ice cream shop to play chess and eat ice cream. We finished off the day with some rock climbing and another movie on the futon mattresses. Totally satisfying! It was so nice to be little like this.

Giggles and Wiggles

Step One: Wrap boy in saran wrap from head to toe, plug his ears, and cover his eyes. Giggle as he tries to wiggle to the bed without the use of his legs.

Step Two: Touch boy's naughty parts with soft silky hands. Giggle as he wiggles and moans in pleasure.

Step Three: Attach boy's parts to electricity (aka TENS unit). Giggle widly as he wiggles like mad and makes lots of unintelligible sounds.

I'm so mean! :-)

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Jello in a Bag

Strange. Tasty. Low calorie. Makes me feel little and happy. 

Diaper Dilemma

Daddy put me in a cloth diaper last night and zip tied the pins so that I couldn't take them off. When I woke up this morning, I found a clean diaper on the kitchen counter with a note saying that I should add it to what I was already wearing and he would release me at noon. Humph! I'm a big girl and don't even need diapers.

The zip tie goes through the hole at the end of the pin.

Footies!

I got new footie pajamas! They're Eeyore! Look, look, look!

This guy didn't get downloaded correctly but you get the idea.

Silly Pictures

Tom and I stopped in at a costume shop after the ageplay munch a little while ago. I can't go into a costume shop without trying on at LEAST a dozen hats and masks. Tom decided to take a picture of it.

These plastic pants came out of the laundry one night and Tom thought it would be funny to put them on over my pants. He thought it was especially funny because my shirt says "AB Hero" on it. I just happen to be blood type AB positive, which makes me a universal plasma donor so they like me at the Red Cross.

Daddy has a special pocket on his jeans for licorice. I thought that was funny. I have to be good when he's carrying licorice though because those things hurt when you get hit with them.

October Littles Invasion

The invasion last Saturday was a blast! I dressed up as Raggedy Ann and Tom was a pretty pretty princess girl. We also had a maid, Spongebob, a western sheriff in diapers, and a devil....among others. We played marco polo in the dark, which was awesome. The crinkles were a dead giveaway for some people. Then we all sat down for a yummy meal at the decorated table. That turned into a finger fight, which is kinda like a food fight except you use rubber fingers instead. *grins* Then we had a sock sliding contest and body bowling using a sex swing and disinfectant containers. Fun, fun, fun! Towards the end of the night, I put Tom on a spanking bench and gave him a whoopin' and then he did the same to me. It was a great night filled with fun, friends, and laughter.

My Raggedy Ann Costume

Tommy's Behind

Pie

This is what happens when little girls are left alone at home....upside down pumpkin pie. *grins* Oops!